I'm too depressed

AMIN KHALILI.
That name meant a lot to me.
Now, it still does.
It left a big gaping hole in me.
It'll take a long time to recover.
.
He said something.
He said it so casually.
He made me cry.
.
I don't want him.
I don't want any guy.
I just wanted...
.
.
.
A friend.
.
Guys are not worth being mad over.
Guys like him.
Guys like AMIN KHALILI.
The boy who asked help from me.
The boy who never cared about me.
The boy who is so damn selfish.
The boy I deleted from my Facebook account.
.
The boy I used to love.
.
Dania.

Friends Enable Me to Make it!

I need friends.
You need friends.
Everybody need friends.
I have friends.
I have true friends.
Do you?
I have fake friends.
Do you?
Are my true friends true?
Or are they faker than ever?
.
Everyday,
I wake up in the morning,
Who do I think of first?
Atiqah.
Who do I think of when I get to school?
Safi. Syazana. Elissa.
Who do I think of during the assembly?
Lee. Amin.
Who do I think of during Sivik?
My fellow sleeping partner, Aiman.
Who do I think of during BM?
My fellow hate-BM friend, Saiful.
What about in class?
Sarah. Amalia.
.
When I get home,
I miss my friends.
I think of them,
I wonder,
Are they thinking of me too?
.
Because to me,
Friends are one of the reasons
I'm able to make it through the day.