Fillah

Assalamualaikum,

I have mentioned in my previous post that I love my friends uhibbukafillah or is it supposed to be uhibbukifillah eh? No matter, but I think it's supposed to be the latter. A friend of mine once posted on Facebook :

A relationship begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear if it's not for Allah

When I read that, my heart instantly clicked. I knew that my relationship with him will end, it's just a matter of time and who will snap first. It turned out that he snapped first yesterday. Surprisingly, I don't even know the date and time that happened. Yes, I am that drowned in holidays that I don't keep track of the date. *raising hands while yelling "I have no regrets!"*. I mean, what kind of high-school relationship is for Allah? Sure, you might deny it as I used to, saying "I want to marry him/her, this isn't a temporary thing". But you can't lie to yourself. Deep down, you know, with the thoughts of your lover, with their texts, their calls, they're sinful. Even though it's somehow innocent. But when there's one boy and one girl together, there'll always be a third person, even in text messages. If not, well there won't be such a thing we call sexting. 

So I have decided to be single until it's truly the right time for marriage. No more boyfriends, no more romance before marriage. Wait till you're ready for it, then get married, then love your spouse till you drown him with your love and nobody would care, plus, you get rewards *kaching* (P/S : this is not a credit card advertisement). I want to spend as much time with my friends since when I'm married *ahem* I won't have as much time with them, so, savour them while they're hot! (Yes, this is a fried-friend advertisement). I said that I'd be single for real after the scam with "Adean" (oh I don't know how to pronounce it still!!!!!!!!) but then... krik3. You guys can figure out what happened. I simply must make an agreement of some sort with Syazana or Aliya or both of them to make me remain single, not that I can't, but I do have a knack for not being... persistent enough, especially when my heart's involved. I mean, not all of us have the willpower to refuse when our heartthrob, the same person we sneak a glance at at school, the same person we stalk, the same person we hope would notice small things about us, tells us they love us. Let's just say I have a knack for... not refusing it. Which I'm not proud of! 

That's it, I need my beauty sleep for my future husband *blows kiss* ahahaha <--- exactly why an agreement is needed... Goodnight everyone. And to the considerate people who care, I'm coping quite well with this, surprisingly! So no worries, I'm cool mates :)