When

This might be abstract but I think I'm losing myself. I have no idea how to define myself. I feel like I no longer have a grip on life like I did last year. I feel like I'm drifting away from joy, sadness, pain, life. Most of the time I feel angry, snappy and tense.

I don't have something to hold on to. Like a balloon filled with helium, floating away without any real destination. That's how I feel. Like I don't have a place where it all ends. I know it's in the grave, but when,

when will I stop feeling this way?