Infinite

Hi there. I don't know if anybody reads my blog now anyway. Since I posted about Harry Styles and my *ahem*obsession*ahem* with him (which has faded drastically thanks to my directioner sister), I figured "Hey, why not post about your next big obsession?". Then I thought, "Why not..." and here we are!

Remember when I said I strongly dislike K-Pop? Well, I still do, for most parts of the population, but somehow, just somehow, Infinite crossed that infinite barrier of dislike. Yes, I am now highly obsessed with Infinite, the boy K-Pop group. Ah, if you follow my twitter, you'll know! The first song I ever heard by them is Paradise. And no, it's not a cheerful song about sun and flowers and clouds. Nope, not at all. 

This place is a paradise only if you’re here

A paradise that has locked you in against your will

A sad paradise that you won’t go if you’re awake

A paradise that we can be together forever, oh

Well that doesn't sound cheerful to me at all... Anyway, I was done for at that time. My friend showed me Infinite in Ranking King so I was sort of familiar with them. Then I heard them sing. I saw them dance. I was totally done for. 

Infinite has 7 members, Kim Sunggyu, Jang Dongwoo, Nam Woohyun, Lee Howon, Lee Sungyeol, Kim Myungsoo and Lee Sungjong. I love them all a lot. 

Since typing a lot is tiring for me since I haven't been typing a lot for a loooooong, loooooooooong time (even though I'm a touch typist, muehehe), I'll stop here for now with an image of Infinite!

From right : Hoya, Dongwoo, Sungjong, L, Woohyun, Sunggyu, Sungyeol

Inspirit,

Dania

Tergeo

My my, this blog has gotten dusty eh?

Hello everyone! I'm back. Well, I've been back for a few days now, more than a week already. And I honesty think I need to sharpen my writing skills since it's gotten a bit rusty. Later I'll type in my continuous writing English essay which I got 45/50 hehehehehehe okay that was just for fun, and educational.

Ta-ta.

Marhaban ya Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum,

Since it's Ramadhan, I'd like to share some knowledge I have concerning this glorious month.

One is concerning du'a. If we pray to Allah when we are fasting, the du'a will insyaAllah not be rejected. As a hadeeth said

The Messenger of Allah (SAW) said; Three supplications will not be rejected (by Allah (SWT)), the supplication of the parent for his child, the supplication of the one who is fasting, and the supplication of the traveler. [al-Bayhaqi, at-Tirmidhi - Sahih] 

The second one is the taraweeh prayer. Muslims are highly encouraged to perform this prayer as the rewards are immense. You can see the rewards here. You should also perform the Fajr prayer in congregation. Usually we perform the taraweeh in congregation but we refuse to perform the fajr prayer in congregation. Why is that so? Did the Prophet (s.a.w) not mention of the rewards of performing the fajr prayer in congregation? Moreover, it's Ramadhan. All rewards will be increased tenfold.

In Saheeh Muslim (656) it is narrated from ‘Uthmaan (may Allaah be pleased with him) that the Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Whoever prays ‘Isha’ in congregation, it is as if he spent half the night in prayer, and whoever prays Fajr in congregation, it is as if he spent the whole night in prayer.” 

Al-Bukhaari (615) and Muslim (437) narrated from Abu Hurayrah (may Allaah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “If they knew what there is (of reward) in ‘Isha’ and Fajr prayer, they would come to them even if they had to crawl.” 

 So if you perform the Fajr prayer in congregation during Ramadhan, you will have the reward as if you spent TEN nights in prayer.

Wallahualam bissawab.

Shine

I wanted to say this to someone very badly, so I tweeted like so...

and then realization dawned on me. My eyes shone enthusiastically with glee and mischief, knowing it would cause people to think I meant well when instead I meant the complete opposite. I typed out the word, shine, in Google and looked up the meaning in English. 

Shine

to appear with brightness or clearness, as feelings.

As if. I wouldn't dream of wishing you brightness or clearness. Instead of getting your heart all warm and fuzzy thinking well, you should try opting for thinking actually once in your bloody life and maybe you would know the truth instead of pasting a mask of smiles on your face. You revolt me. 

Try going to this page and type the word "shine" under the "Find words -> Japanese" column. Press "search", you will find the word converted into hiragana, しね, and voilà, look at the first result. Your pitiful mind would surely shine with the new knowledge. Just because I know you're so lazy to do so much as type and click, here's the screen-cap

Here's another one from another site, a page with a list of Japanese vulgar words, I went on that page just for your sake of not being in the dark you know, just so I can take a screen-cap for your sake and yours only. Thank me.

I'm being horribly nasty here, so I hope none of you innocent beings think I'm actually talking to you. No no, I wouldn't do that to any of you. You have nothing to fear if you have nothing to hide. If you have not spite me, you are innocent in my eyes and you do not deserve this. However if you might have angered me, this might actually be a message to you, my dearly beloved. 

Shine

this might be completely uncalled for but, click the images to view them in full size.

When

This might be abstract but I think I'm losing myself. I have no idea how to define myself. I feel like I no longer have a grip on life like I did last year. I feel like I'm drifting away from joy, sadness, pain, life. Most of the time I feel angry, snappy and tense.

I don't have something to hold on to. Like a balloon filled with helium, floating away without any real destination. That's how I feel. Like I don't have a place where it all ends. I know it's in the grave, but when,

when will I stop feeling this way? 

Today...

So... today's Tuesday. Today's 17/4/2012... Today's the end of the KEJORA holidays. Today I'll be going back to TGB MJSC. Today I have not finished my biology homework. Today I'm cool.

I don't know to be excited or depressed or anything. I'm like "...I have no feelings whatsoever". Haha since when I got home, I didn't feel like being... really at home. With the homework and chores, I don't feel like I'm on holiday. Ugh, don't these people know the meaning of holidays? Well, at least I didn't do everything at the last moment. I can proudly say I've finished 95% of my homework.

Well that's all from me in this month. See you next month guys :)

4-D

I haven't made a blog post about my gang at TGB eh? Well, now I have. We call ourselves the 4-D on random occasions, it's not even an official name but yeah. 4Ds for four people with Ds? Hahaha there's me, Dania, Edora whom we call Dora, Hidayah whom we call Dayah or Yayah, and Adilah whom I seldom call Dila but always call Adijas. Her name is Adilah Jasmine so yeah.

I don't need to tell you guys about me. Reading my blog posts are enough to tell you guys who I am, right? Let's start with the roomies first. Edora. Her bed is the second bed and it's next to mine. She has a very fair skin which I am jealous of. And she has hair which I am also jealous of because it looks so... babyish. Hahahaha. She's the one who always call me Lan. She's always in a world of her own. She's like the Malay version of Luna Lovegood.

Next is Dayah a.k.a Yayah. She's in the fourth bed. She's like my stepdaughter as she calls me her stepmother. At night, I give her a bottle of baby oil and she lathers my hair with it hoho free spa. And the other day, she buffed my nails and did my hair like a conch shell. How cute. And she totally understands my obsession with my crush. I demand a stuffed turtle on my birthday from her! The 'real' turtle is very much welcomed. Hahaha stuff him in a box and give it to me, I'll keep him for sure *kening2

Last but not least is Adijas. She's not my roomie, she's in FA07, we're in FA09, but we're close. She has a rocker's voice kah kah kah and she likes Alif Satar's songs. She's a K-POP fan, I still don't see what's so cool about it but anyway. Somehow she always ended up meeting weird people like toot and Creepy Girl hahaha she got so freaked out with the latter. She can't make her mind about something on the spot, like the PUM. First she wants it, then she wants to resign, then she wants it again and now she has officially resigned from the test. Haish, she always study until late night and I occasionally have to wake her up for Subuh. I also have to wake Dayah up, which is sort of annoying when she really doesn't want to get off of her bed. She calls her mum everyday at 5pm, which I admire. Or maybe it's because she doesn't have a cell phone with her? I just text my mom. My mom supports me in bringing a phone with me because she claimed she can't stand a day without texting me hahaha you're the best. 

So I think that's all about 4-D. Stay tuned for more :D

P/S : Adijas made a blog post about us. Read it!

UPSS 1 SEM 1 2012

Last week, TGB MJSC had an examination or a UPSS. For the form 4s, it's the UPSS 1 and for the form 5s, it's the UPSS 2. My mummy forbade me to stay up at night to study after lights off, so I obeyed her. And it was for a good cause...? I don't really know how to put it but I didn't suffer by not studying after lights off.

So, I got two papers back. Additional Mathematics and Biology. Killer subjects wew. But I honestly think the Modern Mathematics paper was a lot harder. I got an A+ for Additional Mathematics, which is just like, nyaris2 , because it's 90% -.- And I got 87% for Biology. Still the highest in the class hihihihihi alhamdulillah.

So that is all. Farewell. Oh and I'm back until next Tuesday! =D

Sleepover 2k12

Assalamualaikum and happy holidays. Ceh, ok. Last night Syazana and I had a sleepover at my house. We only have sleepovers at my dad's house because there's more privacy and I don't have to deal with the constant knocking from Ilyas when I'm at my dad's place. I downloaded Dead Silence, a movie I watched at TGB.

I called for the pizza. Hehehe domino's pizza~~~ I ordered a regular cheese burst double decker meatasaurus. It was full of meat, mushroom, barbecue sauce. Yum... Ok so we ate on my bed and thankfully we were 16 so no ants came up to bite me at night. I put some chili flakes on the pizza and combined with the barbecue sauce... I'll leave it for you guys to put your imagination to work. After we finished the pizza, we watched the movie. I was soooo grateful I didn't download Ju-On. I wouldn't be able to sleep if I did... Even though I have already watched the movie, I still cover my face with a pillow hehe.

After the movie ended, we stalked some people online, namely the seniors at my school. I am okay. Hahaha. Let's just say they're not as skema as I thought they are. I won't spill anything anymore about mine and Syazana's stalking talent (kidding). You guys have to stalk em yourself. Then Syazana got tired and went to sleep whereas I continued reading dramione fanfiction. I read so much these past few days... If fanfiction can be written in the Nilam book, then I'd have the title NILAM already instead of Gangsa.

 ^Click on the picture to view it in full size^

So I ended up going to sleep at around half past three in the morning. I woke up to Syazana flapping (is it the right word? Not fapping, flapping) my comforter. I wore a baju kelawar, I can't very well type bat shirt can I? Hahahahaha ok that sounds weird. And so my 'pajamas' were lifted up while sleeping. So I woke up because I felt cold huhuhu Syazana shame on you. At 12.30, she went home.......yeah and now I'm typing away on my blog. 

That's all I think. Farewell. Assalamualaikum

Bleak

I spent some time with Syazana today. I faced some... hardship just now but I decided it's not worth ranting about. No hardship is actually. And I spent the rest of the day finishing my Biology homework and reading fanfiction. Well, mostly reading fanfiction, dramione ones.

I have to list down the homework one by one so my life will be more organized during this school holiday which doesn't seem like a holiday at all. So, here ya go.

BM : -folio Renyah
BI : ELBS on hardship
MM : finished
MT : finished
BIO : notes, module
CHEM : module, module, folio on chapter 8
PHY : module
SEJ : folio on role models/tokoh, notes
SK : bind the module, notes

so far... well... things seem bleak. But no worries, since...

Allah does not burden anyone, except with something within its capacity; beneficial for it is the virtue it earned, and harmful for it is the evil it earned; "Our Lord! Do not seize us if we forget or are mistaken; our Lord! And do not place on us a heavy burden (responsibility) as You did on those before us; our Lord! And do not impose on us a burden, for which we do not have the strength; and pardon us - and forgive us - and have mercy on us - You are our Master, therefore help us against the disbelievers."

So I know I can finish those homework on time! Go Dania go. Selamanya~ selamanya~ selamanya telekom juara~~~~ Ok tiba-tiba je nyanyi lagu rumah sukan. Bye bye, Assalamualaikum

Tun Ghafar Baba MJSC

For the first time ever, I am proud and content with my school in almost all aspects. As of now, I can proudly say that I am a student of Tun Ghafar Baba MJSC, Jasin, Melaka. The title looks super right, right? Hehehe. Seriously, I love my school!

Let me rant about all the differences that I noticed. First of all, the size. TGB MJSC has an area of 50 acres. Get it, 50 acres? 50 acres is equivalent to 202 341.821 square metres! I don't know the size of SMK Jalan Empat but... it's quite evident that TGB is massive. Plus, my dorm is like on one corner, and the BA (Blok Akademik) is like near another corner. Haaaa but I still haven't lose weight huhu.


Next, TGB MJSC is called Bumi Tarbiyyah. At first, I had no idea why did they call it that. But after a few days, I found the answer. TGB emits an aura to do good deeds. My mouth don't feel heavy to recite the Al-Qur'an and Al-Ma'thurat. I don't feel heavy and lazy to pray. But I am proud of the way I changed. I no longer talk to guys as much as I did in JESS. You can count using the fingers on your right hand how many times I talked to a guy for other than important stuffs, and the minimum distance is 1m. I don't know why, but I feel calmer in this place. Just imagine, you lost a purse containing RM50. Of course I felt sad, I tried to look for it, but after a while, I relied to Allah and I don't feel nervous, I just felt... calm. 


I love hearing the voices recite the Asma Al Husna, especially in the surau. I love hearing the bilals recite the azan. I love competing with my friends for hafazan. I love the joy of teaching the Holy Qur'an to other people. I love that we 'selawat' whenever someone is called up to give a speech or talk about something. I love that we do our work to the fullest, gila-gila like Encik Ismail said. I love being single. I love thinking about how I should improve myself. I love 409 2012. I love TGB MJSC batch 2012/2013. I love how I think more about Allah and the afterlife. I love how a simple story of Rasulullah Sallallahu alaihi wasallam can make me shed tears. All of them are fillah. 

Fillah

Assalamualaikum,

I have mentioned in my previous post that I love my friends uhibbukafillah or is it supposed to be uhibbukifillah eh? No matter, but I think it's supposed to be the latter. A friend of mine once posted on Facebook :

A relationship begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear if it's not for Allah

When I read that, my heart instantly clicked. I knew that my relationship with him will end, it's just a matter of time and who will snap first. It turned out that he snapped first yesterday. Surprisingly, I don't even know the date and time that happened. Yes, I am that drowned in holidays that I don't keep track of the date. *raising hands while yelling "I have no regrets!"*. I mean, what kind of high-school relationship is for Allah? Sure, you might deny it as I used to, saying "I want to marry him/her, this isn't a temporary thing". But you can't lie to yourself. Deep down, you know, with the thoughts of your lover, with their texts, their calls, they're sinful. Even though it's somehow innocent. But when there's one boy and one girl together, there'll always be a third person, even in text messages. If not, well there won't be such a thing we call sexting. 

So I have decided to be single until it's truly the right time for marriage. No more boyfriends, no more romance before marriage. Wait till you're ready for it, then get married, then love your spouse till you drown him with your love and nobody would care, plus, you get rewards *kaching* (P/S : this is not a credit card advertisement). I want to spend as much time with my friends since when I'm married *ahem* I won't have as much time with them, so, savour them while they're hot! (Yes, this is a fried-friend advertisement). I said that I'd be single for real after the scam with "Adean" (oh I don't know how to pronounce it still!!!!!!!!) but then... krik3. You guys can figure out what happened. I simply must make an agreement of some sort with Syazana or Aliya or both of them to make me remain single, not that I can't, but I do have a knack for not being... persistent enough, especially when my heart's involved. I mean, not all of us have the willpower to refuse when our heartthrob, the same person we sneak a glance at at school, the same person we stalk, the same person we hope would notice small things about us, tells us they love us. Let's just say I have a knack for... not refusing it. Which I'm not proud of! 

That's it, I need my beauty sleep for my future husband *blows kiss* ahahaha <--- exactly why an agreement is needed... Goodnight everyone. And to the considerate people who care, I'm coping quite well with this, surprisingly! So no worries, I'm cool mates :)

La Tahzan

La tahzan, innallaha ma'ana. Janganlah bersedih, sesungguhnya Allah bersama-sama dengan kita. 

It seems that I'm saying it to myself instead of saying them to my friends. I cried while writing a farewell letter to Syazana. I didn't cry like the sort of drama like when the girls cry with just tears streaming down their faces. I cried like, a real cry. I was lucky the mucus didn't drop to the letter XD

I don't know why, but it was a the-moment kind of feeling. I honestly thought I wouldn't cry at all! I really surprised myself when I saw tear drops coming down on my arm. I thought of Syazana and Iwana and all the memories I had with them and then... *drop* *drip* *drop* *sniff* *wipe* *cry some more*. 

I'll miss all of my friends who have stuck with me till the very end at JESS. I will remember the vows we recite every morning (hopefully), I'll remember the school song. Never in my life have I been sadder to leave a school. Never in my life have I felt sad while singing the school's song. Never in my life have I felt like energetic and sad at the same time reciting the school vows. It all happened this week. This week has been a very eventful and emotional week for me, and for my friends who will miss me. 

You guys, Syazana, Aliya, Atiqah, Iwana, Mariah, uhibbukafillah.

Cheers!

My blog looks sort of cheery with a light background and the cat gif, but when I read the posts... they look like they were typed by a suicidal teenager... which I am not. Suicidal, I mean. I am a perfectly typical teenager. So I decided to be more cheerful in my blog. I'll try not to post those emotional stuffs like I'm some sort of permanently heartbroken teen, which I am also not...

So! Today I didn't go to school, I went to Hospital Pakar An-Nur for a medical check-up, you know, for the MRSM entrance. I drank 7 cups of cold water and the container is still... less than a fifth full. How sad T.T And then my bladder decided "oh, the check-up's over. Better get full then". I was like "........." Hahaha. And and and that evening mummy bought two baju kurungs for me! Thanks mummy :3 The total was 320 har-har I felt guilty... But mummy was the one who offered to buy it.

If you're a loyal fan (ceh!) of my blog, you'll notice that I have a new playlist up there, or beside here, wherever. There are 2 One Direction songs which concludes that I am a 1D fan, for now. I mean, how could I NOT love Harry Styles. His voice is like electric! The part that says "You're my kryptonite" in One Thing is ugh *eargasm*. Plus, he's really cute. Even though his face is very very very cute, his voice is not like JB (Justin Bieber ok not Johor Bahru (failed attempt to make jokes)) his hair is not like JB. So he's unique! *hugs imaginary Harry Styles*

Even though I'm moving in a few days, moving schools, that is, I still come to school (except for today...) and I still do my homework! Diligent eh? Muahahaha *vain*. Well, I better catch up with my homework with Syazana. I'm gonna miss her :( We're gonna do a sleepover later this weekend. You guys are hereby uninvited (hoho) to my slumber party.

Love,
Dania

Civilisation

I actually wanted to talk about something... general today. But I wanted to talk about something else beforehand. I'm sure all of you have friends, whether they're imaginary, real, distant, inseparable, they're all friends. I have real, solid friends, but their loyalty, is fake, gaseous, imaginary. I mean no, not all of them, just one, single group. Bah! Who needs them when I have my loyal friends who I know will never leave me or judge me.

Okay back to the original idea. I want to talk about the Jahiliyyah period and this modern, civilised era. Do you actually know the meaning of civilization? Or do you just think it's something like, the thing you call when people live in a modern place, complete with appliances and community? Civilization is the development of the outer, physical, solid, external and spiritual, mental. Now that you know the definition, do you think our era is civilised?

During the Jahiliyyah period, drinking alcohol is a norm. What about now? Don't even talk about alcohol, even drugs are nothing new! During the Jahiliyyah period, people commit adultery without feeling any guilt. What about now? Nothing different, I see. During the Jahiliyyah period, newborn girls are buried alive. What about now? Boy, girls, all of them, all the innocent child born from foul, vile bonding are thrown away. Where? In garbage cans, flushed in the toilet, thrown in rivers, dumps, drains, thrown from an apartment, left to be eaten by pests and rodents!

We, the so called modern people, who have looked down on the Jahiliyyah period, are worse than them! So stop thinking so high and mighty of yourself and look back on what you have done.

Are you yourself civilised?

MRSM Acceptance

Assalamualaikum,

I am writing to tell you guys that I was offered a spot in MRSM Tun Ghafar Baba or MRSM Jasin as it was known before its 25th anniversary. I applied for MRSM Taiping, but I got a better one, and for that, I am thankful to Allah. Alhamdulillah.

I'll miss my dear friends who have stuck with me from the beginning to the very end in JESS who are Aliya, Syazana, and Atiqah. They've been very loyal, very nice, very supporting, they guide me to the right path, they still do, mind you and they almost know me too well. I know Aliya and Syazana will miss me. I'll miss you guys so much. I'll write you guys letters before I go, so you'll have something to remember me by.

And friends who are going away, I hope you remember the ones who are going their separate ways and the ones who are still at JESS. They've been with you for three years, they deserve their share of memories.

People who I have hurt or scar, I am truly deeply sorry. If you want compensation, come to me for it and I'd be glad to give it to you depending on the value. If you want me to seek for forgiveness directly, tell me. I want a fresh start at a new school, not carrying old sins on my back.

I know I am sort of a spoiled child, but I'll strive to get used to the new environment. No pain, no gain, aite? I want to join the swimming team, if there's any. I know there's a swimming club... I know my hands will get rough from all the hand-washing-clothes. I know I'll be sleep-deprived. But I have to face them all.

I know my paragraphs don't have linkers. That's because they don't relate to each other haha. I was thinking of posting something like, touchy and sentimental like this but alas, I'm a bummer for those kind of letters. Not hating or anything, but I just can't type like that... But I wish I can. So, I'll end this at this. This is not a farewell letter okay :*

Love,
Dania

Sorry to Say

I have a friend. But she comes to me when she doesn't have a friend. When I don't follow in her footsteps, she leaves me and goes off with another who follows hers.

In this post, I would like to express my disappointment in her. We went to tuition together, so obviously she sits next to me all the time. During tuition, she texts a guy. She said that he's not her boyfriend. I used to resent him so much last year but I apologised so I don't hate him, I just like, don't care or whatever. When I asked her who was she texting, and she answered, I decided to be playful like last year, like always and say "eeeeeww!". She didn't even look at me or acknowledge that I was saying anything. Okay, never mind.

When I got home, I was infatuated by Hana Yori Dango. Tomorrow I'm gonna go to a DVD store and look for the DVDs. Since I already watched the whole series (season 1, season 2, final movie), I wanted to search for a new drama, J-Drama preferably, so I sent a message to my 'friend' asking her for recommendations. Guess what? I sent the message like 30 minutes ago and I still haven't got any replies. None at all. What a great friend.

You can reply your 'NOT BOYFRIEND's text while learning but you can't reply the one you claim as your 'best friend's text at all? Sorry to say, but **** ***. I tried to find other words to express my disappointment and anger, but only those two words came to mind.

Lost Hope

I went to netball practice for the first time in my life just now. I arrived at school at around 3.50 pm by bike. I sat on a bench in the canteen full of hope that Iman would come there quick. Alas, she arrived. The practice began by running three rounds around the netball court. My shoelace untied itself magically during the last round  and Zahra told me about it. I tried to brush it off by saying it's okay and stuff but she said it'd be very dangerous , so I tied it up again.

Then came the horrifying part. When they did the in-and-out or whatever it is, I... failed miserably. Not only did I didn't jump, I couldn't catch the ball well either. Finally, a senior taught me privately by throwing the ball at me and made me throw it back to her quickly until my hands almost went numb. I didn't give up yet but I felt like this sport wasn't for me. Then Fithriyaani coached me. The ball hit my face at least twice because of my inexperience catching it. Playing defence to me just meant preventing the opposing team from getting the ball, not catching it myself. Soon, I felt light-headed. I said "I don't think I can do this (being on the team for a long-term) but Iman and Fithriyaani encouraged me by saying "Don't worry, it happens when you're new". If you can guess what happened next, you obviously know me well.

I almost fainted.

No big deal, I faint once almost every month. Twice each month if I'm unlucky and it's a schooling month with no holidays. Thrice if there're sport practice. 

Okay so back to the story. I was sent to the canteen, feeling very light-headed and tired. My hands felt really numb. I felt very useless. Like I disappointed everybody. I disappointed myself. I have never trained a sport for a long-term and not faint or almost faint. Swimming may be the best sport for me, but the first time I swam 10 laps of freestyle? I couldn't get up in the changing room and everything sort of became dark. Handball? Even though I scored a goal (superbly if I may say so, the senior said so too), I still didn't get picked for the school team. 

When I first started freestyle last two years, I kept swallowing the pool water and it burnt my throat. I kept saying to the coach and the senior that I can't do it. The coach said "You don't know yet if you can do it or not if you don't practice", so I trained and I found out that freestyle is the best swimming style I can do! In netball, my friends said almost the same thing, but I didn't feel the burst of motivation, of passion. I think I know why. If I suck in swimming, it won't affect anyone but me. Only I would get hurt in the process. It's a solo sport. Netball, on the other hand, requires teamwork. If I flunk, it might make the whole team flunk too. See what I mean? 

As a conclusion to my first long blog entry of the year, I'd like to say that I don't think I'm quite fit for netball. What if I faint during a match? Ooh, that wouldn't look good. I need to swim again. I think that's the only thing for me, swimming. 

Un-Inspired

Everyone is like posting everything on the first day of school. Or about the first day of school. Pfft the first day was boring. Aiman's moving away and I don't have any inspiration to write. Goodbye