What have I done?

I'm just gonna repeat things if you guys don't mind... WHAT HAVE I DONE???

I'm supposed to stay away from him! Why the hell was I chatting with the Khalili guy in the evening???

I'm supposed to forget him! Why the hell (purposely put it) was I looking for his name in the chat list???

Relax, Dania. OK, now I'm kinda relaxed. You wanna know why I'm so freaked out at a good thing (yeah, being in good terms with other people is a good thing, right?)? Okay, here it is.

When I'm in good terms with the Khalili guy, I'll get attached to him. And I'll chat with him everyday. But unfortunately, his emotion is also unstable like me... (now I know what Acap must've felt when I get mad...) He gets mad easily (like me...). But I don't channel my anger through my friends. I only tell them how I feel about something and I'll curse. Then I'll feel a bit better. I don't make my friends my punchbag! Okay, back to the Khalili guy. When he gets mad, he'll channel his anger through me. Which means, I get all the blame.

Then I'll be sad.

MAJOR, SUPER SAD.

That's why I'm supposed to stay away from him. AAAARGH!! See, my emotions are totally unstable. I get mad quickly, sad quickly, happy quickly, frustrated quickly, you get the idea right?

Okay, now I'm gonna try with all my will to get detached from the Khalili guy.